Torture

I don't know how I got over this week. I couldn't stand every single turn of her head in my direction. It distracts me. And always I got this feeling that my heart is way down in my stomach whenever we part. Hais, when will I get out of this state? I know I don't wish to. A lot of things can be derived from this 2 words "Be Mature"...I already feel I've outgrown myself. So much that I wish to go back to be a child again. I miss my childhood, wish I had spent more time developing it better.

Recently had bad visions of her and situations..Highly disturbing. I wonder what they means. I hate when such things happens. I had to spend crazy time trying to decode them. Sian, sometimes I wish I do no have such gifts. But still they are useful. Hais! Disturbing visions until sore throat and now a bit feverish...Hope I can get well soon. Concentrate on this friday and saturday! Hope can make it to NDP also, haha~

Homework and schoolwork are now a chore and bore. Bad signs. Espcially maths and mechanics. Both aeros I'm not that troubled. At least I understood the principles and able to apply. But I'm way behind time for Aerosciences-didn't do any work since Lab3, which is around the last week of May..Gosh...This whole week is terrible too, late for almost all first period lesson. Only good thing is that there is WSS to look forward to...Week 16 got assessment..Hope I pass programming side.



I miss you really. I miss walking you home, even if we didn't exchange any word. It's just your company I desire. I don't need anything, any words. Just silent company. But I'm not going to break my promise to you. I never did break any except for those "blackmailed" promises by my mum.








ALRIGHTS! gotta finish Dloading the games and sleep! Welcome to another long week day...=) (positive start!) WAHAHAHA!



P.S. Juniors are spamming in Facebook. Going off to join them. I think I continue from where I left off next post..Intersting Juniors!