Avoidance

Should I avoid? Should I stand put? Should I?
Not a concidence on Sunday...I felt you telling me..I just did what you told me..
Avoiding in process, then...
I can't focus without thinking of you...
Hope tomorrow papers will be understandable for me to get a healthy 'B'...
Hope I won't think of you during tomorrow papers,
Hope tomorrow night I can make it for class
Just to see you...
Singaporeans just love "Black & White"s...
I love your pink jacket

Last week

Having camp now...damn tired already, but I still wanna say a quickie.
Focus on your work now, get ur GPA...
"Life without your sound seems quiet..."
I kind of understand...that's why I dare not have too many friends, trust is a fragile thing...
Just watched finished I'm Not Stupid Too with the juniors...
I want to see you already, to hold you, hug you, while we enjoy the happy moments.
Nights!
I don't want to pull you down, though I'm missing you like crazy right here and now..

so tired, cannot even shit...

This week is hell... starting from Saturday... god..messed up the rehearsal...
I'm just too occupied with you on my mind...went to your playground to meet a friend.

Sunday...Slept like a pig; ate like a glutton...play like shit...what a life!
Wondered where you went...missed you all day...

Monday...Woke up late, still can play. Touched maths revision, didn't do half. Touched Physics revision, copy answers..Went for training, Bruised up...cocked up...
Dreading the training...scared of your reactions...of facing you...

Tuesday...Woke up early, watch movie, heck the study...Went for meeting, didn't contribute, buddy too noisy, played Frisbee...at least good thing is done maths revision...Evening, disappointed...ankle "crack"-ed again...Midnight...worse...struggled to controlled the feelings of parting...
Glad to see you, sad to see you leave...

Now? Washed Tuesday uniform, going to play 1 quest, watch her go offline, do physics 1 question...sleep.
Sweet dreams, I settle that nuisance for you if you want, let me have some fun!

Tomorrow? pack bag...hopefully camera can work. camp~
See you later tonight...

Jialat for Saturday...hopefully don't cock up...PLEASE GOD.....NO COCK UP....
Hope I don't get too dazzled by you...LOL
Singapore always talk about Black and White...

Me, again

Just woke up 40 mins ago, with a cough, sore throat and spinning giddyness headache. I wonder what happened. And I just got the answer within a few minutes. I just don't know what to say.

I'm not an actor, I only supressed my feelings deep inside me, so you'll feel I'm without emotions and am very quiet. All of my emotions are under the many layers I had created to protect myself from the external negative emotions. But still, internal negative emotions could also affect me, and the best way for me is to meditate. Also there are many who could open or removed some of these layers; maybe I removed them myself, either way. Once removed, they come bursting out. So I'm not surprised if anyone is scared by the sudden change in me. If I were not to put these layers on my emotions, I'm afraid I'll go crazy. REALLY CRAZY. There are many occasions that I did, some were positively crazy and some were negatively crazy.

Nor do I dislike any of the entries your made. In fact, I'm always looking forward to them, to let me know what is a person everyday life's like. More importantly is that I could gain some interesting infomation that might be coming my way, so I could prepare myself for it. I always like conversing with older people, lets me understand things I don't or not heard of. My grandparents and Dad are 4 such people. Now that I am under wushu activities again, I like to know how to manage my time. Searching for answers is very easy; the thing is to apply it, more difficult. Reading, observing, examining, studying other people is always an interesting subject- Social studies. It tells us the mistakes, the downfalls, the ups, the emotions, etc that people have made and sometimes, why. The only thing now is how to apply it to our daily life so that we do not made the same mistakes again, and probably use the same motivation the previous had use to commit ourself to our own goals.

Its also interesting how simple things like "Thank you, Please, Sorry, jiayou", treats, a helping hand, compliments, and even more ridiculous- a single word, can made a difference, both positively and negatively. Point is to look on the bright side, isn't that what everyone is saying?

If you asked me to stop, why were you looking at mine in the first place? I wondered, that's all.

Alrights! Work now, since I missed WSS training today, might as well start on revision. JIAYOUS!

Wednesday

Sunday was a weird day. Didn't know what came over me. WOW, she treated me to soyabean milk, didn't accept my money, so its a treat right? Well, I'm not that kind of person that accepts treats that easily, even from the BFF, except from family. If you insist upon me, then I will try to find a way to repay you in any way I thought best. So I thought hard during the train ride home, remembered that the best present would be a sincere compliment right from the heart. Lol, its wasn't that hard to find. Both of us were dozing off during the ride, so I just observed what I could about her. LOL! Its damn cute and funny. Seriously, a lot people look either funny or embrassing when they slept on train rides, she was one of them. Can't stop grinning inside, HAHAs!!!! XD  The only sad thing is that I spelled "complement" instead of "compliment"...I wonder she knows the difference between them? If so, oh no, got embrassed by my own spelling. Lol.
Monday was tiring. Partnered with the big boy and stripped the whole system off the tabletop. So damn scared I break the wires and forget how to assemble back. Well, in the end really did broke a screw-lots of rest breaks too. Coach was cool. Went for evening training, GOD! That somewhat killed me. But at least I managed to do 7 sets. COOL! I didn't know I can do so much lo. But of course the standard dropped after the first 3 sets. Only got annoyed with Butterfly and Tiepo, GY told me I got a different pattern each time I do the Butterfly. Sad that I lost both the feelings for Tiepo and Aerial. Need to train back them! Hopefully Steven will be free soon, to follow me go gym. Got a nice suprise that she turned up for the training.

Tuesday was crazily tired, extremely late for WSS. Whole abdomen aching whenever I stretched. Today I solo-ed the Handling system (I think it is, forgot the name already, the system JY and Benedict did on Monday). I nearly cried while disassembling. ITS SO GOD DAMN HARD TO REMEMBER! There's about a 50 screws, washers, nuts, and long wires, tubings, etc, etc. Lucky JY went for the training, else I seriously would end WSS at 6pm. Sad Dominic didn't came yesterday, no entertainment. Went down for class, as usual, then did 3 sets of GY's stamina and 4 of mine. Surprisingly mine was much easier. Not that tiring, should have done more to push myself. Luckily didn't too, 'cos got a dry run for the camp later in the afternoon and NDP at night. I don't want to get too tired before Saturday comes. Looking forward to seeing her later. HAHA "cartoons of H20!" LOL~

Nights!



I don't know who you are refering to in your blogs, but if it is me, I'll stop. Sorry.

SATURDAY!

Was greatly looking forward to NDP rehearsal, its the only time

to see her now. Can't get enough. Haha. Missed her like crazy.

NDP was good, though it could be better, since we did a nice job in the hall. Damn the gravel road..Its a pain to lie down..Felt I grazed my elbows a few times. Chiong to Subway straight after NDP. Lucky they haven't close yet. Else I'll miss it greatly.

Common Tests are coming soon. I haven't revised anything yet-no mood. Kept watching movies in the clubroom even though was supposed to finish the plannings for WOC. Its gonna be great! I can feel it already. WSS is kinda boring now, like a job/commitment I have to keep regardless. Maybe I shouldn't have taken the offer,  kind of regretted now. But yet, this is once a lifetime opportunity! Horoscope says I'm "driving with both the brakes and gas on"...Yeah, true. I hope I can presevere till the prelimanry rounds, then I'll leave it to Fate to decide whether I'll go to the finals. If I am, then I guess I have to pause my driving lessons until next long holiday, or if year 3 have enough time...

24 hours- 6 for sleeping, 3 for wushu, 2 for bathing/eating, 1 for facebooking, 10 for studying. 2 for travelling. Just nice..LOL.

HAIS! but the past few days the studying time got some problem so it kind of turned into facebooking time... HAIS!!!!

No Life

Hope tests won't fail...and I miss you..='(

Me...

Well, the previous post shows my star sign..much about my personality. In fact, I LOVE to laugh, I could laugh the whole day non-stop about nothing, but people will think I'm crazy. I'm always loyal to people who had helped me in the past, done me a big favour and always tried to give something similar in return. If not, I try to pass the kindness onwards to someone else. This is what I have done. Yes, I somehow cannot make sense of what people are talking about most of the time, maybe I think too differently. And of course, relationships doesn't affects my performance. Fatal Flaw is Feeling blue...oh dear! Gonna have to change that- I Love Blues, gave me a lot of time to think. Hmmm, What does it meant by secret agendas? Mine or the other party? Aw, too bad again. I just love collecting things...possessiveness..Reachable goals..yeap okay, I set my goals lower then...

Now for bed!

Nights!

check out this korean got talent show...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BewknNW2b8Y

Me

Comfort is vital to Capricorns born on January 15. Physically, emotionally, and spiritually, they do what they can to make the world better. They gravitate toward good feelings, good works, and good intentions. They enjoy living in the lap of luxury but never lose sight of the intangibles that make life worth living.

Capricorn Information for January 15You should embrace: Laughter, spiritual riches, reachable goals You should avoid: Feeling blue, secret agendas, possessiveness

Friends and Lovers

People born on this day are loners yet possess a magnetism that draws people to them. They are loyal and supportive to friends. They have trouble making sense of all but the most intense relationships and usually give their heart only once. They have little problem keeping relationships separate from personal expectations.

Children and Family

Family matters have an important place for those born on January 15. They have leadership potential and are often regarded as the scion of the family. As parents, they encourage their youngsters to develop independence and self-sufficiency yet are anxious to protect them from failures and disappointments.

Health

Although blessed with general good health, January 15 individuals possess an extremely sensitive nature that can negatively affect their physical well-being. In order to retain emotional and physical equilibrium, it's important for them to practice meditation, especially before bedtime.

Career and Finances

January 15 natives know how to take care of business. Career goals play a vital role in their lives, though it may take a long time for them to discover where their deepest interests lie. When they do settle on a career, they give their all. They enjoy making money, although that isn't an especially important factor in their career choice.

Dreams and Goals

Although they wear the mask of practicality with conviction, people born on January 15 have a complicated nature. They want to create a legacy. Their dreams may be far more fanciful and creative than those who know them might expect. For this reason, they often turn to the creative arts for personal expression. Painting, writing, or music help them achieve their inner potential.

Too much of a concidence

@_@ 57 mins ago, I wished for the rain to slow down for about 10-15mins so she can go home. and 44 mins ago, she got home. WOW! its about 14 mins difference! @_@

More interesting is that when I scolded the weather, it bcame more violent.

Too much of a concidence eh?

Beginning End

Life starts alone and ends alone. The only different is you bring memories while journeying towards the end. Death is nothing, but just another one great adventure. Parting is inevitable. Journey forward, look backwards; Reach for the goals, remember those that helped you. If you can't bear pain, don't bear the burden.

Alone. Cold.
Alone. My tears had run dry.
Alone. Darkness is now my ally.
Alone. Witness the new Beginning.
Alone...

HIYAS~

Been missing you lately, wish I'm by your side to hold you when you are most down. Too bad I can't, not my position anyway.

When can I have my own room? Hais, so tired of sharing sleeping together. I wish I could sleep alone, for once.

Found a new singer, Colbie Caillat, nice voice, deep and rich. Nice.

This week not much things. Depressing lately. Most year ones are reluctant to join the Orientation camp. Whta should I do? hmm, this seriously resembles GY asking me this question now. "Orientation not enough people, what will you do?" Hais! His tone and style of asking questions always stumped me. How can there be 2 person in this world so alike? He's kind of like my Dad, both Sagittarius, and always giving direct critism and advice, no beat around the bush; straight to the point.

Once a capricorn, always a capricorn. I not like Sagittarius, always giving sound advice in the correct time, but rather advice not to take risks. I think that is my fatal flaw, the personality that will cause me my downfall. Too much caution.

Dad chide me today, told me I was putting too much time into my passion, which poked my heart greatly. That is an ugly truth. I'm still stuck on my studies and haven't got that goddamn report done yet.. F*...handing in this wednesday afternoon...shit...And for other modules...I'm still somewhat stuck at week 3-4. I wonder how to catch up like this. Hais!

Fallen ill today, hope she'll recover fast. I wonder if I take pictures of her besties, would it help to cure some of the missing feeling? Hais..what should I do? So complicated, everytime, always the same question- "What should I do?"...=.=" My fatal flaw working up again, I dare not take risks that ruin our friendship now.

Slept the whole evening, now can't sleep. Damn.