SUNDAYS

Guess I can't really help it...that is my habit to sleep in on Sundays, even though I tried to for 2 months. Still feel restless and tired out everytime, can't makes me do anything right after the training. Re-read a favorite senior's Facebook I met during a camp...

She's really cute that time I saw her, and very beautiful-like the perfect lady every guy could ever hope for. But she's older than me by what...I was sec 3, shes was JC year 1/2, so I guess about 2-3 years apart? Seriously, that crush I had on her may not fade forever. Still makes me reminsce whenever I saw her photo. Now she is attached to another guy, probably met during one of the University camps or class since both are from the same school. I could never forget the friendship, and the feeling she gave to me. Even if that feeling last for an instance, I felt appreciated, like she's my whole world and I could/would do any/everything for her. Now? We rarely talk...I guessed she even forgot who I am, and how she met me..I don't think I could ever forgot her. She's Number 3, the third crush, and the most with feelings(emotions) inside.

Can't really remember what happened during the camp. I only remembered her borrowing my shoulder to nap, while I put my arm over her to hold her properly upright, supporting her neck while she slept. And the surrounding was playing music and everyone was singing some songs, we were surrounded in the hall by campmates, but I felt like we were alone. Then I think another female facilitator got jealous and also wanted my attention, she leaned onto my left shoulder too. That woke both of us up. LOL. Still remembered the sudden awkward moment. HAHA! XD

Then, I had to leave early, I was attending some Elective Modules in SP and had to go off slightly earlier at the last moment. Gave her my parting gift...I wondered whether she liked it or not, wondered whether she truely understood the reason for and the meaning of the gift. But it's all over now..

So far, I had made a few BEST friends.. let's count them...

1. Lawrence
2. Rui Nah
3. Afiq
4. Jia Yi
5. Lu Jian Rong
6. Kia Shiang
7. Doyz (the last few people on the list)
8. Ding Jie (the last few people on the list)
9. Gui Ping (the last few people on the list)
10. Hun Ning (the last few people on the list)

The last few are one-sided...I wonder they still remember me that I am always here for them? Guess not.. There are a few more, but the would fall in the range of near besties...people like

1. Timothy
2. Jasmine
3. Jun Hao
4. Jonathan
5. Bryan
6. Yun Quan
7. Dato
8. Nicklaus
9. Martin
10. Donovan
11. etc, etc.

Lots more...Most are from wushu, of 'cos not forgetting the other sides- Kenny, Calista, Yit Yong, Jing Sen, Justin, Renfred..Wish I could find all my SV classmates again-a get together, see how the girls have grown more pretty, the boys more mature, how life had changed us...

ENOUGH!!! SLEEP NOW-TOMORROW NEED STUDY FOR AEROSCIENCE!!! ARGH!!!

Year 2 SA1

Finially its the semestral exams...and she's leaving the school in 3 more days....It seem only yesterday that we both sat down to eat mac together...But its over now...Now, I just look forward to reading her stories everyweek. Kinda like chasing an anime show. Lol.


Tomorrow is my maths paper. No mood nor pressure to push me to start studying. Damn the exam timetable...so spread apart.=.=". National Day is already over, I miss the times. Gonna have it next year for sure.

Holidays! I'm so looking forward to it. Finally can complete my Practical lessons and hopefully the test. Then I'm gonna start driving! YAY!!!

This year IVP seems not so important now. Still I wish to take part in Ji Ti catergory. I wonder I can make it? I don't really like soloing...So tiring sometimes...Hope that I be able to come back after NS and try work out a perfect Ji Ti and beat the other schools. HehHeh.

Hais, I plan to work next semester...I wonder I should or not? Living at grandma's, means that I only get to talk with my Dad on weekends, and its less proable now that I wanna work. Seems like I need a lot rest = Pig...XP

Alrights! Gonna change and have dinner. Then, off to CCA!!! =)


p.s. today training is at netball court, uh-oh, hope my knee is not gonna break....X_X

Fuck My Life

So damn unlucky today...sprained the other foot, my left and now both leg weird weird...wonder whether can make it for tmr rehearsal and saturday performance...

Stupid sis threw her "thing" into my laundry without me knowing...Until I found out, it was too late. Still got to pick it out by my hand somemore=jinxed. Didn't managed to complete my machine for WSS. Got scolding by my Dad and sis 'cos I didn't wake her up this morning and caused her to be late for school. As if its my fault! 16 years old already still don't know how to wake up on time. WTF?! HEY ITS YOUR FUCKING RESPONSIBILITY TO WAKE UP, NOT MINE!

hais...If I am really to move, I guess I could go my grandma house...and find work at sheng shiong. At least I am able to earn some extra pocket money for my data plan and save up for all the presents I'm gonna buy for my "her" (of 'cos if she appears)....And I'm more closer to school, easier for transport wise. I hate wasting time travelling..I guessed that once I get my licencse, I'm gonna go Grandma house to stay, and hopefully...things will be okay at home...I hate to abandon my Dad at this point of time.. But my sister REALLY CANNOT grow up and out of her shitting mind..._|_

I tired of it all...really...escape to survive...an animalistic instinct...
I AM FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT. CAN I REMOVE IT FROM MY PRESENCE? IF NOT, I MOVE, THE SHIT CAN REMAIN THERE.