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Yesterday-Monday

Was not exactly a bad day- didn't slept in class! whee~I paid full attention some more. Maths is easy to understand, difficult to master; like Wushu. And that little girl in my class just don't understand me. I never said that my classmates are idiots-just that, well, they look like and acted like fools sometimes...Can't help laughing, god- it just so silly... Everything is easy to me, just as long as it sounds logical and reasonable, but difficult for me to remember and master the skill or the action or whatever it is. So that's one part about me, that's why I rarely spoke is because I'm observing the ways people act in different situations. Seriously, it is VERY FUNNY to see their immediate reactions sometimes.

Went to National Museum for NE trip...Damn sian, 'cos they walked too fast for me to properly understand and explore the Museum thoroughly. I guessed I'll just have to revisit it again with a good camera. Was a good trip, had a nice tea at Astons after which they shared ice-cream waffle at Ben&Jerrys, while I went to check out the Adidas track pants. God~its damn expensive! $59.55 after GSS and Citibank discount! But I REALLY like it lo..Should I buy? If I did, I think I only wear it for friday class at HW.

Evening-night training at TPY swimming complex. A lot of swimmers in the pool, and the pool stinks. Worse than CCK...Swallowed a bit of it and inhaled some...Feeling ill now. Did a few flips and was warned by the lifeguard on duty. So only did BT and hand flips. Disappointed with buddy, after hearing some of the news from President. That's is also why I prefer not to make friends, I HATE seperations...I HATE LEAVING AND NOT GOING BACK. For this kind of things- graduation/cca/etc, to me, its like a one way street. Either you continue going down the road, or you make your turn and never come back. That is also why I never dared to fall in love, I'm scared of self destruction...

A female friend on Facebook posted-"Love is not just trusting a stranger for life; Love is about giving your life to the stranger and trust that he will not destroy you. "...and while searching for this, I found this, "I’d rather be your lover then your friend, but I’d rather be your friend then your nobody."

Well, that's more about me tonight...Gotta go now, less than 6 hours sleep left...gotta treasure it! Nites 

Prediction

I told her to busied herself with work to forget the disappointment. I can't get the results, 'cos well, she didn't want to give a long answer...

I bet she will blog again this week, unless she was informed before hand...Let's do this experiment again, shall we?

hmm...maybe it's just coincidence..But can it happen so many times to one person?! Miracle if it does..

I REALLY want to know, the answer behind this whole thing. Laws of the Universe. I only hope that I won't become "big-headed" like that guy in Megamind, 'cos I know too much.

Ignorant is indeed Bliss..

Just As Predicted

What in the world is this ability? Human link? What is going on? I felt so tired everytime I used it...I think I'm gonna drop dead asleep now..Going for a refreshing shower now, shall explain later.

Just know that it came true..hmmm..

Competition

Less than 24 hours...Scared I can't sleep now...

I got this from a friend. "A winner is someone who recognizes his God-given talents, works his tail off to develop them into skills, and uses these skills to accomplish his goals." -Larry Bird

What if I'm scared of my talents? I always wondered what is wrong with me...Somehow, somewhere, not physically or mentally, nor emotionally. I got a feeling I have a six sense...Not the one that see ghosts..Can't explain it well now...I'm still finding out, see whether this ability of mine is accurate and real..by testing it out every night. I wonder is there a name for it?

Hais, tomorrow is the day...damn, senior routine is already like way above mine-so many jumps and flips...Hope I can at least learn them before this year IVP, and master for next year IVP...I need to get gold, I want to help NYPWUSHU! That's my pact.

Hope ankle be a good ankle tomorrow and not give me any trouble, else it'll be embarrassing..LOL

I bet she will get the medal tomorrow...who'll knows?
Night

Ankle

Saturday Competition- Win for NYP...Gold for NYP...

A sudden thought-Will master still teach me some other methods? I wonder...I think 5% yes...haha
Ankle sudden pain today...I wondered why...no pain unless sitting awkwardly...really need to buy the bandages tmr...god, I spent like 600+ this month for everything like my weapon, doc fees, food, etc...

I just don't get something right...left maybe..

consider it tmr...Cool Night!

I just don't get it

Interpretation of Signs, Body, Concidences, Words, what in the world is going on? I can't help feeling wrong and twisted...My mind is thrown into a total hurricane. I just want to know, to know more, to understand how things work and what words meant. Sociality is one thing that I think I can never ever finish learning.

I miss the old her, really. The 1st time I ever saw her, the impression, the smile, the character, the feeling...now all are different. Her past, so highly interesting and eventful with emotions, are now seem to be filled with loneliness and sadness. I want to see the old one again..I miss her really.

I just want to be by your side, quietly...='l

Time Machine...an interesting thought, Mr President...

Chicken talking to Duck

I just don't understand...What in the world is going on?...

Invitation

WHOA!!! This is one hell of a shock..

My favourite white lions got injured while training, the right was in 2 pieces now, joined by tape (LOL). The left suffered injures near the tip...Hais...Sad

SO! I went downtown to get a new pair and guess what? I got invited to his home! Shocked like crazy.

Him: So you end class already?
Me: Yes.
Him: What you going to do after this?
Me: Not sure, maybe walk around and explore the place.
Him: Why not come over to my house for a cup of tea?
Me: *stunned* er...May I?....Ok....


LOL! One hell of a serious shock! I mean, I'm not "close" to him, and I'm not that good or extra-talented, why? Up till now, this happended last friday, I still can't figure it out.

It is great fun! His house is a "mansion"- front yard, fish pond, back yard, 3-4 stories high and, 4 doggies, one of them tried to stop me from entering after I came out of the toilet. =.= I didn't dare explore the topmost, though I would like to know what the architect was thinking when he drew the plan for the building. His grandchildren were great fun, though both bit me on my shoulder when I refuse to let them bully the youngest. HAHA damn Funny lo. He played a movie, don't know what it was, kind of interesting -a guy carrying an alien crash onto a "old-en"  kind of planet, and the vikings help him kill the alien, which escaped when the spaceship crashed. Even though almost everyone died in the end, quite an action packed movie. He fell asleep halfway, just like my grandfather does- cute la, hahas.

Didn't get any tea, though he told us to help ourselves and make ourselves feel at home . But that young gentlemen tried to "say sorry" for his biting me, poured me a glass of water, seeing that I was coughing. Smart boy, he's only 5, I think. So I just played with the 3 of them until dinnertime, and got to eat with Smartie and him...Of course Smartie still being a kid, need feeding by his grandma. I thought I saw myself when I was young, made me feel I have walked a long way..
Then went down to HQ with him...still in a state of shock that I am sitting in a car full with "VIPs" people from the martial world...hmmm, I wonder her cough is gone yet. I hate the weather nowadays, its making a lot of people sick, including me.

The only bad thing from this trip was 3 mosquitoes' bites and flies getting into my rice and fried eggs...the kids biting me wasn't that bad, 'cos I already had "trainings" with my cousins and a few kids in the daycare center when I was still in primary school, so its nothing new. I now somewhat wished they bit me harder, so at least I got a mark to show off- HAHA cold joke~.

Wushu- Ankle's not getting better, though not getting worse either. Bad thing now is my left hip joint to my leg and my right knee. Why? 'Cos I kept landing hard on my left thigh and my right leg against my left foot...Dammit...I really need to see him do it again..and try out in the gym...hais.

Wish I could take a break, maybe a month? After the competition to recover, I wonder whether would he allow it?

Bless her-your child, Moon...

Yesternight

Was one of the most interesting night I ever had this month. Hmm, I got to talk to one of the Alumni to know more about the world outside..Its really very much different.

Full moon again..I wish The Jade Rabbit did heard my pleas. Please fufil them...

Lol, guess what? I wanted to ask her out for the upcoming movie. I wonder how her reactions would be like-most probably rejection, suspicions, fear. Hais..It felt like years even though its only weeks. I hoped I have not bound myself yet, 'cos if I did, there shall be no turning back...

Hmmm...

Nites.

ENVISION

One just need to vision himself/herself getting it, doing it, and he/she will get it. If One thinks that their target is far, thus will always be far. If One thinks that they have done it in the mind, reality shall take place.


Jiayous. Concentrate. Focus.

Vesak Day

Slept like a pig today....Whoa yesterday WAS FUN!! Enjoyed watching Rapunzel with the 2 seniors and President..Funny lo. Then went to SingaporeSTOMP and saw funny pictures of people doing sports. I got severe stomachaches when i just got to the 28 of 60 pictures. It's so goddamn FUNNY! And I could not laugh out loud because she was sleeping, Guess she's really tired. I think GX thought I was crazy laughing to myself while looking at FB homepage(I Alt-Tab to stop myself laughing and just nice he came into the room)...LOL.

Training was also fun. Did individual twice and sad to say, not very good. Made mistakes where they can and should be avoided. At least my theory is correct now. And my ankle was ok, taped it securely though, hate the inflexibilty...hmph. Damn aerials, I got you now, and you are not running away. Keep the feel man! Oh, and BIG CONGRATULATIONS to those who did/got aerials. =) LOL~its like getting 1st solo..haha.


Now washing laundry again...I am wearing my shirts too fast...I'm scared they'll tear from so much washing...hmph! And downloading movies to watch...well squeezing the time to watch them lo...


OK no more here~! Acutally there's hell lots more...no time! HAHA~

Searching for Songs now...Nights!

 

cold

I so much wanted to hold her right now...but its just not right...

Using songs to express...

I tried putting everything together...seems like this is the best way... hmm but not exactly what I wanted to express... hmm.

"
Hey baby girl
I've been watching you all day
Man that thing you got behind you is amazing
You make me want to take you out and let it rain
Now if I talk it girl, you know that I will walk it out
Man I'll put my money money where my mouth is
Cause you're the baddest little thing that I've ever seen~ Leavin'

I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to holler at you
I want to get to know you better.
I'm lifting up my voice to say
You're the hottest girl in the world today.
The way you shake
You got me losing my mind~ Body Language

I've been missing you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
Damn those sweet memories
Tried my best at movin' on
Have yet to find a girl like you
See things now I didn't before
Now wishin' I had more time with you
How do you stay awake
Knowin' all I do is think of you
If I could just see you
If I had my way i'd come and get you girl
In your favourite car with the missing top
Around my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart
Tell me that you're gettin' more sleep
Can't think can't eat till I come see you.~ How Do You Sleep

It's like a blood rush straight to my head
When I think about you in my bed.
She's all up in my veins.
Ooh, I got addicted.
Her love is so addictive.
It took over me.
She's all up in my veins.
It's like I got a shot.
Injection to my heart.
It flows through my body.
She's all up in my veins.
And I need it everyday.
Good lovin' oh baby,~ In My Veins
We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all
Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause
'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed
You know that it's over when the burnin'
And the yearnin' inside your heart ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you
And move you like the way she moved ya before
And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better
Girl you know it's over~ Its Over

Can we not fight no more?
I don’t wanna feel the pain we’ve caused.
Let’s call a truce tonight,
cause my guards are down.
We’ve been moving too fast,
Baby with nowhere to go.
Every chance we have just seems to go up in smoke.
Send an SOS yeah cause we ’bout to choke.
This flight could go down…
Look at how far we have come.
We still can get it back, we still can get it back.
The damage can all be undone.
Let’s just take baby steps, let’s just take baby steps,~ Crash & Burn
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry
No more them gray skies
Girl we flying on a g-5, g-5
And we're leavin' never looking back again
So call your shawty you tell him you found a new man
The one who's so so fly
The one to keep you high
Have you singing all night, night night~ Leavin'

Don't stress, don't stress, don't stress
No stress, no stress, no stress
Girl you deserve nothing but the best~ Leavin'
"

All lyrics are from Jesse McCartney-Departure: Recharged songs

Thunder

I can't hear your laughter, nor see your smiles anymore...It either shock me or it is Thunder...

so much to say...

My Best

Yes. I will do it. My Best.

1)Distance away from you.
2)Win Bronze/Silver for National.
3)Score A for Common Tests.
4)B-twist and Aerial.
5)All Projects/Assignments get A
6)Remind myself about you.
7)Score A for exams.
8)Win IVP.

I will distance myself not to let you have any reminders. I will do it, because I have done it, and will do it again not to hurt you. Be Strong. Do not release Hope. Victory shall be ours.

Jiayous!

Iced Heart

Chris Medina's "What are Words" gave me a lot of thinking...I'm trying to, yet, HOW?

I developed this method since long forgotten...It was she who melted it, I wonder how she did it...and I forgotten how to ice it back...

Find a way quickly...hopefully...

I promised myself to bring back the cup to NYP, but I know I cannot do it alone. I hope Coach will tell me some of his plans, so I can help generate more ideas to increase our chances...Just like the video I just watch- "I not only use all of my brains, I even used the borrowed brains." My plans for this new batch is simple. If he is going for group, bonding is most important. It has to be develop-ASAP. Tranings for power, jumps, etc are more time consuming and tiring. Now, I'm experimenting ways to condition jumps... Some thoeries worked; some didn't, and quite painful. I think it is magical that I am able to do my routine accordingly.

Too bad this friday gym is not open. Hope to get more news soon, so can try out the theories...

Oh, and if You are reading my blog, I like to ask- Why?

Nights.

Forgiveness

The World Most Hardest Person To Forgive

-Yourself

by AchanA

Horoscope

It was right...It was foretold that she will meet a very brief and intense passion...but it will not last...

True enough, it is brief, rather intense, and we shall see how it ends...


She shall be emotionally drained and tired out...

Guess I should move further, prevent further happenings...

It's all my fault...too reckless and careless...

I'm Tired and Scared..

I thought you would be the one that could teach me happiness. You did-You made me smile. I wish I could give something in return. I guess that is to really move away from you...Disappear.

12am...

The time Courage left...
The time Things get done...
The time I left...
The time Pressure left...
The time Stress came...
The time Disappointment ran in...
The time is Over.

Trust Drunk

Up till now, there are still many secrets, within me, yet do not belong to me. I wish I can just "open the bottle cap and pour everything out".

I have already taken steps to improve the relationship, to be given the "rights" to know. A simple example, I learnt from my past mistake, is that, even if I know the secrets, I need to "earn" from the person who "own" it. That is to say that I need to hear it from the person himself, else, there is no truth/secrets and the infomation I had is unreliable. Simple and effective. Though I know had a few infomation at hand right now, I still use the ,what people call it, polite way of possession of the infomation. So in order to gain infomation you already have, but to do it in a "formal" way, you need to ask the person involve, yes? Well, I'm trying hard to ask, making sure I made correct moves. But now its gone, no more, ended, no need to ask, gamers call it "Game Over".

Another thing I learn is that never post anything while "Drunk". This term simply means "Not in the current state of mind" or simply put "crazy". Well, I guess after a crazy 2.4km run in about 12 mins made me "Drunk", 1st thing home was to check FB status and post blog while cooling down. WHAT A MISTAKE...

There wouldn't be a next time, then...

2 years left

If I could live through the 4 years of secondary, why not the 3 years in Poly? I have done it, and shall do it again!

That's why I told certain things in advance, to prepare to tell a truth, at the correct time, correct place. I see where I am wrong now. But the thing is that issue has not reach/ affect the person/people involved, so why let them know now, not later at a correct atmosphere? I don't understand.

I should have guess that Fate is making a fool of me. It gave a lot of signs too, I didn't really took notice of them- too bad. Since things had already been told, or rather said to a certain extend- I don't really know, I guess I just have to go with the flow then.

But for now, The route I planned, I think, still remains the best route for my run. I could see the sky at certain spots, people returning home from work, etc, passing through fond childhood memories sites...

I sincerely wished that things have not come to such state. But, what can I do? Nope, I cannot not ignore and pretend nothing had happened...Guess I have to figure this situation out myself...

It's Coming...

I wondered how to cope with it, even though others had done it before me, I still fear.
Guess that can't be helped. And recently my body fire left me, felt so cold everyday, everynight.. Shit, where did it go?

Perfecting the twin sabres now for the competition. Going to clean my eyeballs now then sleep. My lips are burning up...Bad signs.

Nights...

May 2

So sian, stuck with a long holiday without training...damn it, have to do it my way. Guess I go for lunch and home movies or study later till evening then start my training. Or else I have to wait till night time...

And I had enough of sacarsm in my secondary school...

And recently(just now), saw her blog, wondered who she's referring to. Whatever, I hope our friendship remains.

Guess I have to search for a new goal den...maybe not though...fighting fire with fire, using anger to create strength might be a good thing for now..., guess I have to use this method until I find a new motivation...=/