There are many types of definition of success. For me, thanks to a good friend I finally get to really sit down and talk with her today, I found part of my never-ending ambition. And I feel extremely apologetic to her right now as she's not back home.
When I was younger, I used to think that I wanted to become a "hero", the type of person that goes off to rescue people in need. In my secondary school days, I wanted to be an engineer, to provide advanced technology to the community to serve them better. Now? I'm not sure. I realized that in life, you could be anything you wanted to be, and because of my own fickle mindedness, I still couldn't truly decide what is my choice.
The impression she gave me, the energy emitting from her, the glint of her own objectives sitting right in her eyes' cores, made me realized- in life, it really doesn't matter what is your long term goals, it also doesn't matter whether you have one or not. The point is to have goals, and achieving them. So I guess, my long term goal-Aircraft Engineer, if does not succeed, doesn't really matter. So long as I had accomplished what I wanted to do now. The quote "Do something that your future self would thank you for" could not really apply to me personality- I am too fickle minded.
Thank You, and I am still waiting for your reply that you are safe at home now.
There's also another thing that had been bothering me ever since I asked the Almighty to help. I got the impression that God loves all of His children, and thus wanted something from them. His Instructions were all recorded in the Book, and only by following the Instructions in the Book, would we find Heaven and Him. Else, we will not be admitted into Heaven and fall down to Hell.
Now, here's the irony- If God truly loves us all, why would he even care about whether we believed in him or not? Love is giving and receiving, like parenting- it demands giving your soul, life, time, energy into beings that were made from Love, and it is not requited. The beings' conscience does automatic giving back the things that were bequeathed to them(This is the Buddha's teachings b.t.w). I think, if God truly loves us, Heaven should be opened, to all of his children, be it good or bad, He is still a parent after all.
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Monday, December 24, 2012
The Lord's Birthday
Some people said that the Mayan Calendar ends when the world ends...so when does it end? Some says it haven't end yet, some says its about to be upon us. Well, I think it ended the day when the Lord came down to Earth.
I went to quite a number of churches this holiday, all celebrating the Birth of Lord Jesus., and kind of sick of the events. They were always going on about feeling happy and peaceful, and persuading us to join in their bliss and group. There was one particular pastor that promised that I will get a mission from the Lord via vision. So while they were worshipping, asking for blessing, I asked for the Lord to come into me, pleaded with him to give me my life destiny and mission.
All I got, was truely a vision.
I have not shared with anyone regarding this, neither my friends nor family knew about it, and I do not think it concerns them, because it doesn't affect me, yet. Here goes:
"I was climbing up stairs that were cut cleanly into a mountain side, and there was also one more guy running up. It felt like I was following someone I knew up the stairs. Imagine my suprise when I saw the face when it turned around. It is Me, at least it does-same face, same hair, same body shape. I was shocked, man. The big different was that the Guy-that-look-like-me had wings, dark grey wings sprouting from his back and he was looking up into the sky.
I continued up to his side and looked up. I saw Heaven. I think I did, because I saw a gate that was opened and inviting, totally gold and well, god-like in the movies. Then my (vision) eyes surveyed the area, me's eyes were still fixed upwards, staring. There were buildings all around us. Greek, I think, by the looks of it. And there are also pagodas and an Empire State Building in the distance. I could see people on the rooftops of the buildings that my eyes could see. All of them had wings, wings of different color, and all of them were looking upwards-towards Heaven.
I looked back up, and I instantly regretted. Flaming golden arrows rained down upon us. With a loud battle cry, Me leaped up into the sky. I follwed suit."
And after that, I don't know what transpired next, maybe because I opened up my eyes, back into the church. I tried closing my eyes again to see what happens next since the people are still worshipping. I pleaded again:
"I was wounded, and I could feel all the pain on my body. I tried hard not to faint and lose conscious. I looked upwards. There were large objects dropping down from Heaven. I heard cheers of victory and my, it was very pleasant to the ears-even better than those classical music. There were wonderful rays of golden sunshine shining at the Gate. And suddenly, a beam of pure white, shot straight down, towards Earth, somewhere the North-west of me. I looked around for my look-alike partner, nowhere to be seen. I stood up slowly, and flex my back...I almost blacked out.
On my back, were two wings, of pure black, being eaten up slowly by golden flames. I stared in wonder at the disappearance. I collapsed to my knees onto the ground and felt a force pressing hard onto my shoulders. Heavy and unforgiving. I started to pant from the weight.
Then I saw a shadow in front of me. I craned my neck up and saw a most beautiful face-full of youth and sizzling energy, made of peace and justice, filled with knowledge and wisdom, and on his back, two wings of purity white.
I gasped and looked down, now on all fours. I heard the swishing of a blade, felt my neck turned ice cold, then volcanic hot, and no more."
I wondered what it meant, but not for long before my stomach felt sick and I had to gulped air in to control it.
On the ride home with my friend that invited me to the service, he tried to convert me into Christianity. Which he failed, of course. He told me that the Lord is everywhere, and He is a Healer and my Destiny.
Heres my points:
-If He is everywhere, then why have not everyone realised Him?
-If He is a Healer, then why give me such a weird vision?
-If He is my Destiny, then what is my life for? Me or Him?
I rather chose myself for my last point.
I went to quite a number of churches this holiday, all celebrating the Birth of Lord Jesus., and kind of sick of the events. They were always going on about feeling happy and peaceful, and persuading us to join in their bliss and group. There was one particular pastor that promised that I will get a mission from the Lord via vision. So while they were worshipping, asking for blessing, I asked for the Lord to come into me, pleaded with him to give me my life destiny and mission.
All I got, was truely a vision.
I have not shared with anyone regarding this, neither my friends nor family knew about it, and I do not think it concerns them, because it doesn't affect me, yet. Here goes:
"I was climbing up stairs that were cut cleanly into a mountain side, and there was also one more guy running up. It felt like I was following someone I knew up the stairs. Imagine my suprise when I saw the face when it turned around. It is Me, at least it does-same face, same hair, same body shape. I was shocked, man. The big different was that the Guy-that-look-like-me had wings, dark grey wings sprouting from his back and he was looking up into the sky.
I continued up to his side and looked up. I saw Heaven. I think I did, because I saw a gate that was opened and inviting, totally gold and well, god-like in the movies. Then my (vision) eyes surveyed the area, me's eyes were still fixed upwards, staring. There were buildings all around us. Greek, I think, by the looks of it. And there are also pagodas and an Empire State Building in the distance. I could see people on the rooftops of the buildings that my eyes could see. All of them had wings, wings of different color, and all of them were looking upwards-towards Heaven.
I looked back up, and I instantly regretted. Flaming golden arrows rained down upon us. With a loud battle cry, Me leaped up into the sky. I follwed suit."
And after that, I don't know what transpired next, maybe because I opened up my eyes, back into the church. I tried closing my eyes again to see what happens next since the people are still worshipping. I pleaded again:
"I was wounded, and I could feel all the pain on my body. I tried hard not to faint and lose conscious. I looked upwards. There were large objects dropping down from Heaven. I heard cheers of victory and my, it was very pleasant to the ears-even better than those classical music. There were wonderful rays of golden sunshine shining at the Gate. And suddenly, a beam of pure white, shot straight down, towards Earth, somewhere the North-west of me. I looked around for my look-alike partner, nowhere to be seen. I stood up slowly, and flex my back...I almost blacked out.
On my back, were two wings, of pure black, being eaten up slowly by golden flames. I stared in wonder at the disappearance. I collapsed to my knees onto the ground and felt a force pressing hard onto my shoulders. Heavy and unforgiving. I started to pant from the weight.
Then I saw a shadow in front of me. I craned my neck up and saw a most beautiful face-full of youth and sizzling energy, made of peace and justice, filled with knowledge and wisdom, and on his back, two wings of purity white.
I gasped and looked down, now on all fours. I heard the swishing of a blade, felt my neck turned ice cold, then volcanic hot, and no more."
I wondered what it meant, but not for long before my stomach felt sick and I had to gulped air in to control it.
On the ride home with my friend that invited me to the service, he tried to convert me into Christianity. Which he failed, of course. He told me that the Lord is everywhere, and He is a Healer and my Destiny.
Heres my points:
-If He is everywhere, then why have not everyone realised Him?
-If He is a Healer, then why give me such a weird vision?
-If He is my Destiny, then what is my life for? Me or Him?
I rather chose myself for my last point.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Noah's Ark
They say God is always there and forever loving His children. So if He loves us, why did he unleashed the flood that wiped out the world of sin for 3 days and 3 nights?
Put it this way:
A Mother always love her children, even though they made mistakes and committed sins against her, she still loves them. But her punishments were for the good of them, and instead of killing them and instantly remove the problem, she takes great pains to explain to them why and where they were wrong, hoping that they would understand the sins they committed.
Now, the question:
Why didn't God send His messengers, the angels down to Earth, to painstakingly tutor His own children of the sins they have committed against God?
Author's note: I am very curious to know why the Almighty does such acts, as claimed in the Bible. Just wanna know the stories behind it. No offense meant. I didn't read finish the Bible, only the Revelations sections, which I felt the most interesting. =)
Put it this way:
A Mother always love her children, even though they made mistakes and committed sins against her, she still loves them. But her punishments were for the good of them, and instead of killing them and instantly remove the problem, she takes great pains to explain to them why and where they were wrong, hoping that they would understand the sins they committed.
Now, the question:
Why didn't God send His messengers, the angels down to Earth, to painstakingly tutor His own children of the sins they have committed against God?
Author's note: I am very curious to know why the Almighty does such acts, as claimed in the Bible. Just wanna know the stories behind it. No offense meant. I didn't read finish the Bible, only the Revelations sections, which I felt the most interesting. =)
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Never judge a girl by her looks..
She is cute, with her front teeth protruding out by a bit, giving the image of a bunny. With her small and petite figure, she looks the decent girl of an average family, with principles and mannerism.
I saw her as soon as I boarded the Bus routed to the Train Station. It, the bus, packed full, and she was standing to the side of the main passageway. The passageway is normally allowed 2 person to pass through, and she was standing to the side. So I tap my card and took my position, diagonally behind-right of her, with one extra person in between us.
Then that guy alighted and more boarded. A man was gripping to the handle about me with his armpit right behind my ear. It made me uncomfortable, I fidgeted and glanced a few times behind. Seems like he didn't take the hint. So when the bus stop at the next red light junction, I shifted right behind the girl, in between a lady in her 40s and the secondary school girl.
Never did I expect the bus to move at that particular moment, causing me to trip backwards and my left foot accidentally stepped on the heel of her(secondary school girl's) shoe, I believed. I muttered a soft "Sorry", or so I heard it with my ears, then boringly take in the surrounding of the road.
Curious, I glanced back to the girl's handphone. She was messaging someone, probably her classmate, about her day, that she fell into a drain while walking and "it pain like hell" (these were her exact words) I felt symphathy for her and wished that her pain could go away.
The blow came. "and somemore this guy on the bus behind me stepped on my leg and never even apologise =.= assh*le". I was stunned, dumbfounded, and totally wordsbaggered. How could she called me something vulgar?
Ok, being a cool guy, I tilted my head back and said "Sorry la", loud enough for her to be shocked. I don't know what happened next, probably SMSing her friend that I am a weirdo ,etc nasty stuffs for looking at her phone. And hey, I am literally looking at her phone, not peeping or whatsoever. My body is halfway turned to look at her back of her head when her text messages caught my attention and curiousity.
It is my fault for stepping on her heel of her shoe, AND NOT HER LEG, okay maybe I did, but I'm sure I didn't. AND SINGAPOREAN's english very terrible-their definition of "Leg" is totally off from the dictionary. And it is my fault for mumbling my apology when it should have been said aloud, enough for her to hear. As well as my second apology is a shock to her and probably not as sincere as she expected.
BUT is the fault TOTALLY mine?
I don't think so. First of all, she had be standing at the same place when I boarded the bus, disregarding the simple act of kindness to move the middle of the bus to allow people to board. Neither did she moved during and after the incident happened, and only after I alighted. Maybe she thinks that being tiny and all, she doesn't get affected and is also not affecting the passageway.
Hello~being tiny doesn't mean you don't get squashed by others, and your ears need to be cleaned, as well as your mannerism need to be straighten! If you got stepped on by strangers accidentally while in a public transport, it is considered normal, especially when the train or bus suddenly moves. If the person gave a grunt or a nonsensical sound that you cannot define, just simply accept it as a apology from that person. Do you really require a loud-hailered apology from the stranger, to let EVERYONE on board to hear the stranger apologising for a simple matter? Are you really that petty? Besides, its the back of the shoe, not the TOES! It can't hurt much as the toes, this comes with experience by taking the train towards JE or YS during the peak hour, if you really experienced this, you would have accepted it magnanimously. And do you really think you are the one having a bad day? I got caught in the rain, and was drenched and had to dry myself at relative's house before I could head home. I also woke up at 7 this morning, maybe it is slightly later than yours, but I slept late last night.
I am really appalled by this incident, simply one word is enough to send me spiralling into negativeness. Are ALL pretty and decent looking girl in singapore have such mannerisms? I seriously hope not. Else, I am going to look for my life-partner overseas. And I sincerely wish the boys here 'Good Luck' handling the girls' mannerisms, their pettiness, and probably their discipline, tidyness and laziness. =/
I saw her as soon as I boarded the Bus routed to the Train Station. It, the bus, packed full, and she was standing to the side of the main passageway. The passageway is normally allowed 2 person to pass through, and she was standing to the side. So I tap my card and took my position, diagonally behind-right of her, with one extra person in between us.
Then that guy alighted and more boarded. A man was gripping to the handle about me with his armpit right behind my ear. It made me uncomfortable, I fidgeted and glanced a few times behind. Seems like he didn't take the hint. So when the bus stop at the next red light junction, I shifted right behind the girl, in between a lady in her 40s and the secondary school girl.
Never did I expect the bus to move at that particular moment, causing me to trip backwards and my left foot accidentally stepped on the heel of her(secondary school girl's) shoe, I believed. I muttered a soft "Sorry", or so I heard it with my ears, then boringly take in the surrounding of the road.
Curious, I glanced back to the girl's handphone. She was messaging someone, probably her classmate, about her day, that she fell into a drain while walking and "it pain like hell" (these were her exact words) I felt symphathy for her and wished that her pain could go away.
The blow came. "and somemore this guy on the bus behind me stepped on my leg and never even apologise =.= assh*le". I was stunned, dumbfounded, and totally wordsbaggered. How could she called me something vulgar?
Ok, being a cool guy, I tilted my head back and said "Sorry la", loud enough for her to be shocked. I don't know what happened next, probably SMSing her friend that I am a weirdo ,etc nasty stuffs for looking at her phone. And hey, I am literally looking at her phone, not peeping or whatsoever. My body is halfway turned to look at her back of her head when her text messages caught my attention and curiousity.
It is my fault for stepping on her heel of her shoe, AND NOT HER LEG, okay maybe I did, but I'm sure I didn't. AND SINGAPOREAN's english very terrible-their definition of "Leg" is totally off from the dictionary. And it is my fault for mumbling my apology when it should have been said aloud, enough for her to hear. As well as my second apology is a shock to her and probably not as sincere as she expected.
BUT is the fault TOTALLY mine?
I don't think so. First of all, she had be standing at the same place when I boarded the bus, disregarding the simple act of kindness to move the middle of the bus to allow people to board. Neither did she moved during and after the incident happened, and only after I alighted. Maybe she thinks that being tiny and all, she doesn't get affected and is also not affecting the passageway.
Hello~being tiny doesn't mean you don't get squashed by others, and your ears need to be cleaned, as well as your mannerism need to be straighten! If you got stepped on by strangers accidentally while in a public transport, it is considered normal, especially when the train or bus suddenly moves. If the person gave a grunt or a nonsensical sound that you cannot define, just simply accept it as a apology from that person. Do you really require a loud-hailered apology from the stranger, to let EVERYONE on board to hear the stranger apologising for a simple matter? Are you really that petty? Besides, its the back of the shoe, not the TOES! It can't hurt much as the toes, this comes with experience by taking the train towards JE or YS during the peak hour, if you really experienced this, you would have accepted it magnanimously. And do you really think you are the one having a bad day? I got caught in the rain, and was drenched and had to dry myself at relative's house before I could head home. I also woke up at 7 this morning, maybe it is slightly later than yours, but I slept late last night.
I am really appalled by this incident, simply one word is enough to send me spiralling into negativeness. Are ALL pretty and decent looking girl in singapore have such mannerisms? I seriously hope not. Else, I am going to look for my life-partner overseas. And I sincerely wish the boys here 'Good Luck' handling the girls' mannerisms, their pettiness, and probably their discipline, tidyness and laziness. =/
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
PASSED!
FINALLY!
Ever since that performance, I wanted to blog about the future. But now it has already passed.
First it was that performance, I forgot what it is already, I think its the Japan Culture Exchange. Second was my semestral examinations, which I think I've done badly except for 2 papers, Propulsion and Thermofluids. Third was the 9th National Wushu Display, I got selected for the performance and got into the cudgel group, which was the foundation of our performance, and my LED button hit my shoulder blade and went off during the performance. BAD. Latest, my traffic police test. The worst of all. I did badly during parallel parking, and even doubt the officer, now I think about it, its really LOL. He just want to see whether I follow the steps correctly, he didn't even care whether my handbrake was up or not. Anyway, I passed with 8 demerit points, 20 is the maximum, and its taken from the errors which I think didn't exactly happened-Different people got different timing and estimations. Well, he's the more experienced one, he decides. =D PASSED!
Then rushed back down to school for FYP training for WSS Qualifying Round. JiaYi got sick, so he didn't really do well. Max and I messed up the sequence. But at least I think our program is slightly more stable than the DJ team. Because Dominic used back the old relays for the rest of the program.
Rushed down to Yuhua after getting my Mh shirt from my cousin and got there about 8.30pm. Surprised the 2 "Changsui" brothers were there training. Shan't say much here. Then normal teaching/coaching. Not sure what is going today, seems a lot of people is sick, one of my new student not feeling well and the other didn't even attend. Then went on to learn green belt"18 demons" (the name is wrong, don't laugh. I don't know the chinese name) from GW. Man~his teaching style is different from other coaches like GY and JT. Very Detailed, which is perfect for me. I learnt much today.
Viewer Discretion ADVISED. Not for the sensitive, unanalytical, unacceptable and simply idiotic.
Funny thing was, I got amused by the way he got angry. He got angry because my horse stance is wrong in one of the steps. The way he tried to correct it was confusing. He kept saying my "leg" is wrong, what he meant was my toes are not pointing forward enough. I thought he was refering to the direction my horse stance was facing, it was NOT perpendicular to the starting point direction. So I just shifted my whole leg slightly forward to make it perpendicular. Then wrong again, so I shifted it back. He thus got frustrated for no reason (during that time I didn't know, I was trying to figure out what was wrong) and squated down in front of me and tried to adjust my toes. Now here is the funny thing. Because it outdoor, we need lights, and the light is behind me, casting my shadow upon GW. He pointed at my toes, which I didn't notice fast enough so I thought its the direction problem again so I tried to ask him about the direction and he adjusted my right toe to point parallel to my left. Then "this horse stance", but once I shifted to 90deg to start point, my toes pointed out again (I probably didn't notice much, simply 'cos I can't see my toes.). Mr Small then suddenly came over from behind and striaghten my back, at least give me a warning, I nearly fell down from shock and unbalance. Lucky I didn't react fast, else GW's face might have got a small bump from my knee because he was adjusting my right toe while suddenly someone came up from behind. Natural reaction would stand turn upper torso to see the stranger.
Mr Small showed me that my back was not straight, then I told him its not exactly easy to do in my that current position, and his toes are pointing outwards. So I also notified him, because he helped to notice my back, I helped him to point out his toes, a favour returned, I guess. But GW got pissed and started ranting about not being appreciative enough and very rude. THAT, I admit, purely because the way I deliver message is of a different channel. But I don't understand why every kid, as well as those around my age, can understand me, and not the older people, except for my kin. I am the kind that accepts things as what they are, you don't like or disagree, you can point out; or shut up. If you do point out my mistake, I accept the critism and if you have a solution, I'm more than happy to take it and discuss whether it is good or not. And I do the same with people I am familiar with, like people around my age or younger, I might point out your wrongs if I spotted it, and if I have a good solution which I tried before, I will share it with you. Simple as ABC.
So back to the training. After the rant, which stopped because I think GY intervened by saying that I don't have traditional foundation, GW showed me in exaggerated form the incorrect traditional horse stance and the correct horse stance. ONLY THEN I KNEW WHAT HE WAS so pissed about...LMAO. XD
I meant you can straight away show me different examples of right and wrong horse stances, instead of trying to adjust my toe. And kept saying "Adjust your LEG". Aw man~ cm'on, "LEG" and "TOE" are 2 different things. Anyway, he showed the examples, and I got the idea, and it hurts in the wrong places. He said those that have done it correctly should have tiredness on the thighs, but all I got was sharp pains jabbing at my ankles. and truthfully, I felt that my toes are pointing inwards instead of being parallel after he adjusted my toes. I'm not sure whether which is correct now. 'Cos another thought is coursing through my brain. Is it possible that toes point inwards and knees point outwards??? I don't know, gonna check it out. So now I'm back to basic-learning the traditional horse stance.
Viewer Discretion ADVISED. NOT for the VERY ( SI BEI )sensitive, unanalytical, unacceptable and simply idiotic.
Now about GW, I'm just not sure, are those that practise Buddhism more calm and acceptable? The way he got angry was very opposite of the teachings of the Buddha. Its not worth getting angry over a simple thing like my toes not pointing straight. The way GY teach is that he teach everything once, so you will pay attention to details, and leave it to you to practise. And if you do wrong the next time he comes to check on you, you practise again the corrected version, and again until you got it right, you learn new things. This style is good, but it doesn't apply to all (like the 2 kiddos I'm taking at Yuhua). I'm gonna try this style on D on friday. And then I heard from the others that GW got angry with the 2 new students. Well, I want to try a mini challenge-if I can tame the 2 new ones and teach them fast and correctly enough, I treat myself to "yee mian" =D.
Hmm, GY told me a few things I gonna jolt it down..so I can read it again. To remind of my own mistake and the changes I've made and done to improve myself in character. I wish my friends are not discreet with me, so I can easily find out my own mistakes in character. But such things doesn't come free and easy. Huh? If anyone is reading this post, I must say you have really done well, to spent so much time of your life to read my frustrations. =) Thanks for reading!
Ever since that performance, I wanted to blog about the future. But now it has already passed.
First it was that performance, I forgot what it is already, I think its the Japan Culture Exchange. Second was my semestral examinations, which I think I've done badly except for 2 papers, Propulsion and Thermofluids. Third was the 9th National Wushu Display, I got selected for the performance and got into the cudgel group, which was the foundation of our performance, and my LED button hit my shoulder blade and went off during the performance. BAD. Latest, my traffic police test. The worst of all. I did badly during parallel parking, and even doubt the officer, now I think about it, its really LOL. He just want to see whether I follow the steps correctly, he didn't even care whether my handbrake was up or not. Anyway, I passed with 8 demerit points, 20 is the maximum, and its taken from the errors which I think didn't exactly happened-Different people got different timing and estimations. Well, he's the more experienced one, he decides. =D PASSED!
Then rushed back down to school for FYP training for WSS Qualifying Round. JiaYi got sick, so he didn't really do well. Max and I messed up the sequence. But at least I think our program is slightly more stable than the DJ team. Because Dominic used back the old relays for the rest of the program.
Rushed down to Yuhua after getting my Mh shirt from my cousin and got there about 8.30pm. Surprised the 2 "Changsui" brothers were there training. Shan't say much here. Then normal teaching/coaching. Not sure what is going today, seems a lot of people is sick, one of my new student not feeling well and the other didn't even attend. Then went on to learn green belt"18 demons" (the name is wrong, don't laugh. I don't know the chinese name) from GW. Man~his teaching style is different from other coaches like GY and JT. Very Detailed, which is perfect for me. I learnt much today.
Viewer Discretion ADVISED. Not for the sensitive, unanalytical, unacceptable and simply idiotic.
Funny thing was, I got amused by the way he got angry. He got angry because my horse stance is wrong in one of the steps. The way he tried to correct it was confusing. He kept saying my "leg" is wrong, what he meant was my toes are not pointing forward enough. I thought he was refering to the direction my horse stance was facing, it was NOT perpendicular to the starting point direction. So I just shifted my whole leg slightly forward to make it perpendicular. Then wrong again, so I shifted it back. He thus got frustrated for no reason (during that time I didn't know, I was trying to figure out what was wrong) and squated down in front of me and tried to adjust my toes. Now here is the funny thing. Because it outdoor, we need lights, and the light is behind me, casting my shadow upon GW. He pointed at my toes, which I didn't notice fast enough so I thought its the direction problem again so I tried to ask him about the direction and he adjusted my right toe to point parallel to my left. Then "this horse stance", but once I shifted to 90deg to start point, my toes pointed out again (I probably didn't notice much, simply 'cos I can't see my toes.). Mr Small then suddenly came over from behind and striaghten my back, at least give me a warning, I nearly fell down from shock and unbalance. Lucky I didn't react fast, else GW's face might have got a small bump from my knee because he was adjusting my right toe while suddenly someone came up from behind. Natural reaction would stand turn upper torso to see the stranger.
Mr Small showed me that my back was not straight, then I told him its not exactly easy to do in my that current position, and his toes are pointing outwards. So I also notified him, because he helped to notice my back, I helped him to point out his toes, a favour returned, I guess. But GW got pissed and started ranting about not being appreciative enough and very rude. THAT, I admit, purely because the way I deliver message is of a different channel. But I don't understand why every kid, as well as those around my age, can understand me, and not the older people, except for my kin. I am the kind that accepts things as what they are, you don't like or disagree, you can point out; or shut up. If you do point out my mistake, I accept the critism and if you have a solution, I'm more than happy to take it and discuss whether it is good or not. And I do the same with people I am familiar with, like people around my age or younger, I might point out your wrongs if I spotted it, and if I have a good solution which I tried before, I will share it with you. Simple as ABC.
So back to the training. After the rant, which stopped because I think GY intervened by saying that I don't have traditional foundation, GW showed me in exaggerated form the incorrect traditional horse stance and the correct horse stance. ONLY THEN I KNEW WHAT HE WAS so pissed about...LMAO. XD
I meant you can straight away show me different examples of right and wrong horse stances, instead of trying to adjust my toe. And kept saying "Adjust your LEG". Aw man~ cm'on, "LEG" and "TOE" are 2 different things. Anyway, he showed the examples, and I got the idea, and it hurts in the wrong places. He said those that have done it correctly should have tiredness on the thighs, but all I got was sharp pains jabbing at my ankles. and truthfully, I felt that my toes are pointing inwards instead of being parallel after he adjusted my toes. I'm not sure whether which is correct now. 'Cos another thought is coursing through my brain. Is it possible that toes point inwards and knees point outwards??? I don't know, gonna check it out. So now I'm back to basic-learning the traditional horse stance.
Viewer Discretion ADVISED. NOT for the VERY ( SI BEI )sensitive, unanalytical, unacceptable and simply idiotic.
Now about GW, I'm just not sure, are those that practise Buddhism more calm and acceptable? The way he got angry was very opposite of the teachings of the Buddha. Its not worth getting angry over a simple thing like my toes not pointing straight. The way GY teach is that he teach everything once, so you will pay attention to details, and leave it to you to practise. And if you do wrong the next time he comes to check on you, you practise again the corrected version, and again until you got it right, you learn new things. This style is good, but it doesn't apply to all (like the 2 kiddos I'm taking at Yuhua). I'm gonna try this style on D on friday. And then I heard from the others that GW got angry with the 2 new students. Well, I want to try a mini challenge-if I can tame the 2 new ones and teach them fast and correctly enough, I treat myself to "yee mian" =D.
Hmm, GY told me a few things I gonna jolt it down..so I can read it again. To remind of my own mistake and the changes I've made and done to improve myself in character. I wish my friends are not discreet with me, so I can easily find out my own mistakes in character. But such things doesn't come free and easy. Huh? If anyone is reading this post, I must say you have really done well, to spent so much time of your life to read my frustrations. =) Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Aigoo!
Aigoo! Its been so long since I last blogged. Anyway, been caught up with Christmas, New year, CNY and now 2nd Year 2nd Semestral exams. Next week is already the Common Test and I'm still blogging...Sad huh?
Well, since I've prepared not to get really good grades now. Just hope to stay above GPA 3, looks and sound easy now, but I seriously can't afford to slack, much.
I just don't understand my mother. She just wants me to study well. My GPA now is 3.22. Is it not well enough? What's more, I am an assistant coach in wushu, and also a World Skills in-training, and I am doing self-learning Korean language, and my next target is German. Is it not enough? I also tried to spring clean the house before CNY. Yet she scolded me for cleaning the house. This is seriously WTF...
Aigoo.
Finally finished watching Ao No Exorcist. Its a very nice anime, in my opinion. Do catch it if you readers have the time. I sincerely hope it release second season soon. And Underworld Awakening is showing cinemas today!So happy! Ironically, I'm watching the download, rather than the original version...heheh...Heard it wasn't very well done, mostly the lack of Michael and the story is more about Selena. Now I'm catching up on Resident Evil Series, Transporter, The Mummy, and also a few of my favorite SNSD variety shows.
Wish to start listening to other Kpop songs soon to learn more about Hangul, but SNSD voices are too attractive not to listen to..haha~
Something about World Skills. It is like the Olympics. You compete in different areas/traits such as Mechatronics, Robotics, CADD, CNC milling, Dinner Serving, Art Drawing, etc. Just that in the Olympics you compete in areas/traits such as Swimming, Running, Hurdles, etc. yeah, you got the point? Put it simply- Olympics is about sports. World Skills is more about industral-skills that you need to have in different industries. For me, I'm in the Mechatronics, Engineering industry. There are also a lot more areas/traits associated with their own industry.
Alright...Gotta start revising...or rather, studying..LOL
Annyeong~ =)
Well, since I've prepared not to get really good grades now. Just hope to stay above GPA 3, looks and sound easy now, but I seriously can't afford to slack, much.
I just don't understand my mother. She just wants me to study well. My GPA now is 3.22. Is it not well enough? What's more, I am an assistant coach in wushu, and also a World Skills in-training, and I am doing self-learning Korean language, and my next target is German. Is it not enough? I also tried to spring clean the house before CNY. Yet she scolded me for cleaning the house. This is seriously WTF...
Aigoo.
Finally finished watching Ao No Exorcist. Its a very nice anime, in my opinion. Do catch it if you readers have the time. I sincerely hope it release second season soon. And Underworld Awakening is showing cinemas today!So happy! Ironically, I'm watching the download, rather than the original version...heheh...Heard it wasn't very well done, mostly the lack of Michael and the story is more about Selena. Now I'm catching up on Resident Evil Series, Transporter, The Mummy, and also a few of my favorite SNSD variety shows.
Wish to start listening to other Kpop songs soon to learn more about Hangul, but SNSD voices are too attractive not to listen to..haha~
Something about World Skills. It is like the Olympics. You compete in different areas/traits such as Mechatronics, Robotics, CADD, CNC milling, Dinner Serving, Art Drawing, etc. Just that in the Olympics you compete in areas/traits such as Swimming, Running, Hurdles, etc. yeah, you got the point? Put it simply- Olympics is about sports. World Skills is more about industral-skills that you need to have in different industries. For me, I'm in the Mechatronics, Engineering industry. There are also a lot more areas/traits associated with their own industry.
Alright...Gotta start revising...or rather, studying..LOL
Annyeong~ =)
Friday, December 9, 2011
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