Me, again

Just woke up 40 mins ago, with a cough, sore throat and spinning giddyness headache. I wonder what happened. And I just got the answer within a few minutes. I just don't know what to say.

I'm not an actor, I only supressed my feelings deep inside me, so you'll feel I'm without emotions and am very quiet. All of my emotions are under the many layers I had created to protect myself from the external negative emotions. But still, internal negative emotions could also affect me, and the best way for me is to meditate. Also there are many who could open or removed some of these layers; maybe I removed them myself, either way. Once removed, they come bursting out. So I'm not surprised if anyone is scared by the sudden change in me. If I were not to put these layers on my emotions, I'm afraid I'll go crazy. REALLY CRAZY. There are many occasions that I did, some were positively crazy and some were negatively crazy.

Nor do I dislike any of the entries your made. In fact, I'm always looking forward to them, to let me know what is a person everyday life's like. More importantly is that I could gain some interesting infomation that might be coming my way, so I could prepare myself for it. I always like conversing with older people, lets me understand things I don't or not heard of. My grandparents and Dad are 4 such people. Now that I am under wushu activities again, I like to know how to manage my time. Searching for answers is very easy; the thing is to apply it, more difficult. Reading, observing, examining, studying other people is always an interesting subject- Social studies. It tells us the mistakes, the downfalls, the ups, the emotions, etc that people have made and sometimes, why. The only thing now is how to apply it to our daily life so that we do not made the same mistakes again, and probably use the same motivation the previous had use to commit ourself to our own goals.

Its also interesting how simple things like "Thank you, Please, Sorry, jiayou", treats, a helping hand, compliments, and even more ridiculous- a single word, can made a difference, both positively and negatively. Point is to look on the bright side, isn't that what everyone is saying?

If you asked me to stop, why were you looking at mine in the first place? I wondered, that's all.

Alrights! Work now, since I missed WSS training today, might as well start on revision. JIAYOUS!