Success and Love

There are many types of definition of success. For me, thanks to a good friend I finally get to really sit down and talk with her today, I found part of my never-ending ambition. And I feel extremely apologetic to her right now as she's not back home.

When I was younger, I used to think that I wanted to become a "hero", the type of person that goes off to rescue people in need. In my secondary school days, I wanted to be an engineer, to provide advanced technology to the community to serve them better. Now? I'm not sure. I realized that in life, you could be anything you wanted to be, and because of my own fickle mindedness, I still couldn't truly decide what is my choice.

The impression she gave me, the energy emitting from her, the glint of her own objectives sitting right in her eyes' cores, made me realized- in life, it really doesn't matter what is your long term goals, it also doesn't matter whether you have one or not. The point is to have goals, and achieving them. So I guess, my long term goal-Aircraft Engineer, if does not succeed, doesn't really matter. So long as I had accomplished what I wanted to do now. The quote "Do something that your future self would thank you for" could not really apply to me personality- I am too fickle minded.

Thank You, and I am still waiting for your reply that you are safe at home now.


There's also another thing that had been bothering me ever since I asked the Almighty to help. I got the impression that God loves all of His children, and thus wanted something from them. His Instructions were all recorded in the Book, and only by following the Instructions in the Book, would we find Heaven and Him. Else, we will not be admitted into Heaven and fall down to Hell.

Now, here's the irony- If God truly loves us all, why would he even care about whether we believed in him or not? Love is giving and receiving, like parenting- it demands giving your soul, life, time, energy into beings that were made from Love, and it is not requited. The beings' conscience does automatic giving back the things that were bequeathed to them(This is the Buddha's teachings b.t.w). I think, if God truly loves us, Heaven should be opened, to all of his children, be it good or bad, He is still a parent after all.